1. Still fresh and slightly bloody while Katie takes a picture.

2. Shiny after washing and removing plastic wrap (ugh why do tattoo artists still use that?)

3. Detail of the Burrow!

4. A flexed muscle picture so my scars are sorta visible through it.

It’s wrapped around my fat, scarred calf so the pictures are skewed a bit but oh my god I love it so much!

The colors will lighten ( including the stars) and it will look so nice. Better pictures with more detail will come as it heals :)


tagged as: #personal #Harry Potter #tattoo


Oh my god

It’s 5 billion times better (and bigger) than I thought it would be.

And holy shit after the third hour it hurt like a bitch but it’s so fucking gorgeous. I am so much happier than I even imagined I’d be! :3

Katie is an incredible tattoo artist. I’d recommend her in a heartbeat (we talked about Doctor Who [she has an owl tattooed on her forearm with Tom Baker’s scarf!], Hitchhiker’s Guide, Eureka, Warehouse 13, and Gaiman!) and…well, pictures will come soon. :P When I can take a good one!



Tattoo in four hours!!! Ahhhhhh!!!!! :D


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I get my tattoo in 17 days! :D HOORAY! The lady doing it is named Katie Hutchins and she’s super talented, really cute, she has beautiful tattoos of her own, and her ‘office’ is lime green. I’m getting it done on my leg (the other calf, opposite the Eiffel Tower. It’s going to be the picture I recolored (just a little lighter in the sky so the blending looks better and so that there’s more color difference between the trees and grass and stuff) with a parchment-style scroll above and below it with the quote “It’s not really goodbye after all” in the American Harry Potter chapter font. :3 I can’t express how excited and happy I am about this, you guys have no idea. Eeeeeeee!

And my 21st birthday is in five days, so there’s that too. =] I think I want to go to either TGIFriday’s or the Bonefish Grill. So excite! :D




Katie said yes she liked my idea and said she’d be happy to do it for me HOORAY! :D Guys I seriously can’t wait to have this artwork on my body, it’s going to be so beautiful. I finally get to have a tattoo that will require ‘sessions’ and I can’t even express how it feels knowing that Harry Potter will be a part of my skin. :3


tagged as: #personal #tattoo #Harry Potter #yay!


fuckyeahtattoos:

sloth reading a book
Done by Katie at Blue Byrd in Middletown, OH

hoping I can get my piece done by the same artist. This is so cute! :P She doesn’t work at Blue Byrd anymore … she’s actually less than 5 miles away from me. I’m so excited and I hope she likes my idea…

fuckyeahtattoos:

sloth reading a book

Done by Katie at Blue Byrd in Middletown, OH

hoping I can get my piece done by the same artist. This is so cute! :P She doesn’t work at Blue Byrd anymore … she’s actually less than 5 miles away from me. I’m so excited and I hope she likes my idea…




It started like this:

I did it oh my god it took me 4 hours but I finally recolored it myself. as a tattoo, I’ll probably want the tree on the left to look better and the purple in the sky to be darker and more shaded than ‘filled in’ and the flowers to not be as dark and also more detailed but I’m proud of myself for just figuring this out. :p
thank you morgan for suggesting pixlr. it took me a while and some tutorials but I figured it out!
original art credit to Mary Grand Pré!
edit: I made the edges a bit darker (added another layer) and I made the leaves in the willow a little darker to sort-of match the green of the grass under it and I love this. I just hope it can work as a tattoo.

It started like this:

I did it oh my god it took me 4 hours but I finally recolored it myself. as a tattoo, I’ll probably want the tree on the left to look better and the purple in the sky to be darker and more shaded than ‘filled in’ and the flowers to not be as dark and also more detailed but I’m proud of myself for just figuring this out. :p

thank you morgan for suggesting pixlr. it took me a while and some tutorials but I figured it out!

original art credit to Mary Grand Pré!

edit: I made the edges a bit darker (added another layer) and I made the leaves in the willow a little darker to sort-of match the green of the grass under it and I love this. I just hope it can work as a tattoo.


tagged as: #personal #tattoo #hp recolor

Tattoo Talk 

I’ve been going a little tattoo idea-crazy and I just want to talk it out on here because you guys are awesome and inspire me a lot. I know that I really want to get my [first] Harry Potter tattoo, and my birthday is coming up. I’ve been thinking about calling The Shaman’s Den in Binghamton, since I’ll be back in New York for a week in the beginning of August, to see if they can maybe fit me in. If they can’t, I’m sure I can find an artist here in Dayton. But anyway!

The tattoo I’m really thinking of, I can only describe since (as I’ve mentioned) I’m a rather terrible artist. I really want to get the quote from the first movie “It’s not really goodbye after all” in the books’ chapter font. It’s got a lot of personal meaning. I sort-of want to get a swirly-ish style Fawkes, because obviously as a phoenix (and a super important part of the whole story), he never really has to say goodbye. He rises from his ashes…but I’m not sure the colors of red and orangeish and gold will look very good on my skin. I also really love the chapter art from Deathly Hallows chapter 5, but I don’t know how to use photoshop or color/recolor it…I know how I’d want it colored, so if anybody could help me, I’ll pay you to recolor it if you want/have the time! Normal_books_chapterart_dh_032

Here’s the ‘official’ colored version. I don’t like that much blue, and it’s small because this is the highest resolution I could find.

Books_chapterart_dh_05

…but I’m not sure the quote fits very well with the chapter art. It’s the chapter right after (spoiler alert?) Hedwig dies and I feel like that was a huge goodbye for Harry to have to make, especially since she died to save him, just like his parents.

And then part of me just wants to get an outline of Hogwarts, or even just the quote by itself.

I’m just so indecisive…not because I don’t know what I want, but because I want ALL THE THINGS. HALP!?




does anybody want to design a tattoo for me around one of these general themes? I’ll pay for it, just talk with me and we’ll figure out a price and such:

-the quote from Harry Potter “It’s not really goodbye after all.”
-the lyrics “There’s more to living than being alive”
-a conglomeration of foods, like cheesecake, bacon, avocado, mashed potatoes, a cup of tea, a baguette, etc.
-the number 42 or the words “forty-two” [Hitchhiker’s Guide Reference]
-something to honor House (the show, of course) that isn’t actually Hugh Laurie’s face and isn’t just a quote. Definitely not “everybody lies.”

if you want to design something in a ‘frame’ too, that’s awesome. If you don’t want to do this at all, okay. I just really want a tattoo and unless it’s simple linework, I’m not really good at designing anything. Let me know!




My favorite Wil Wheaton role was as Dr. Isaac Parrish in Eureka. It was fun to see him be a snob.

I actually just really love Eureka. I honestly want a Eureka tattoo but I don’t want it to be the Global Dynamics symbol. I want something awesome. I was thinking maybe the Cafe Diem sign or something but I’m not very good at designing anything. Somebody make me draw so I get better at it!




reblogging from myself without the longwinded commentary because it’s just a great tattoo and I’m proud to have designed it :]
(p.s. see how it’s the word love but it’s also a sideways heart look at me how clever I know it’s not super ultra original but I still love it and it’s technically in my handwriting)

reblogging from myself without the longwinded commentary because it’s just a great tattoo and I’m proud to have designed it :]

(p.s. see how it’s the word love but it’s also a sideways heart look at me how clever I know it’s not super ultra original but I still love it and it’s technically in my handwriting)

(Source: littlemarshmallowqueen)



A(n ever-expanding) list of tattoos I want: 

-a small silhouette of the Eiffel Tower (yes, that would make two Eiffel Tower tattoos.)
-the Arc de Triomphe
-the Moulin Rouge
-the Musée du Louvre
-the Harry Potter quote “It’s not really goodbye after all.” (in HP font, of course)
-42 or forty-two. Haven’t decided on whether to make it a word or a number.
-the lyrics “There’s more to living than being alive.” from the Anberlin song Alexythimia
-a slice of cheesecake, definitely, but I’ve thought about making it a big conglomeration of other foods too, like a sliced avocado, bacon, a cup of tea, a baguette, some cheese, etc. I would probably want it to be a thigh piece.
-“Just Listen”, the title of a Sarah Dessen novel and a constant reminder.
-something to honor House…maybe just the H logo, maybe a quote. Not completely sure yet, but that show saved my life, and I’m still trying to figure out exactly what will be sufficient enough to me to commemorate that.
-I eventually want a chest piece, but I’m going to have to put a lot of thought into it. Part of me wants it to be a quote from a French poem I wrote. “Tu est vraiment plus belle que toutes les étoiles du ciel.” and then have a night-time scene with stars and clouds but I don’t know how it would work just yet.

locations yet to be determined other than those I already mentioned.

so basically, I need a sugar mama because all of this would cost, like, $2000.
and the list will, as the title said, keep growing. 




Fact: I found my dream tattoo whilst watching gay porn on the back of a boy whose film name was Jeremy.
It’s pretty awesome.
Edit: This was over two years ago. I’ve had this picture saved on my computer for two years because it’s such a pretty tattoo. And also, butts.

Fact: I found my dream tattoo whilst watching gay porn on the back of a boy whose film name was Jeremy.

It’s pretty awesome.

Edit: This was over two years ago. I’ve had this picture saved on my computer for two years because it’s such a pretty tattoo. And also, butts.


tagged as: #gay porn #Eiffel Tower #tattoo


My tattoo looks good like this: yes or yes?

My tattoo looks good like this: yes or yes?




Last Tuesday, I got my second tattoo. This one was done by [the very talented] Shane Trevett at The Shaman’s Den in Binghamton, NY (they have a tumblr too! Their url is, appropriately, theshamansden.)
[TW: Mentions of SI and suicideation]
I want to just say right now that this might be a little hard for some people to read. Please, if you are easily triggered, don’t read this.
This tattoo has been a long time in the making, a lot of people and ideas and words and pain and leaving and therapy and cigarettes and hospitalization and hugs and change and a whole hell of a lot of love. I actually don’t even really know where to start. My story is so incredibly huge and, really, it would take the next 20 years to tell you about the first 20. I apologize that what ensues may be a bit long, but its my story to tell, and it’s my blog to tell it on.
There were a few times in my life, between the ages of 9 and 18, that my depression almost got the best of me. I hurt myself for a very long time. Cutting was how I got through the day, every day. Most of the time, I couldn’t even make myself get out of bed - I would just sleep, wake up, cut, and go back to sleep. It didn’t matter to me that people worried about me, or wanted me to stop, and really, knowing that I was hurting the people I loved by hurting myself only made me hate myself more. It became more than an addiction - it was my life; the only times I felt at rest were the times I was slicing myself open. But it started getting to the point that I was scaring myself, going too deep, doing it too much - the scars that you see in this picture were made while I was at college over the course of a night, and to just make a bit of a point, I don’t scar very easily. They were deep and they wouldn’t stop bleeding and when I thought about it, I didn’t even know what had upset me so much in the first place. But that still didn’t stop me. The last time I tried committing suicide, I finally had myself checked into the hospital, where I was diagnosed with the following: depression, bipolar II, pica [but only paper], borderline personality disorder, and schizoaffective disorder.That seems like a lot (even to me), but since those two weeks of intense (and very intensive) therapy, I’ve been learning how to deal with it. One day at a time, you know?
It seems like, still, there is something every day that sends a twinge of that urge to hurt myself coursing through me. I’m weak enough - and strong enough - to admit that I still have a ‘just-in-case’ razorblade hidden away. It’s hard - really, really hard - to let go of something that used to be my life. To stop myself from doing it. To try and stop myself from even thinking it. And that’s why I got this tattoo.
This design is original, and it holds a lot of meaning. It’s both a heart and the word “Love” made of dashed lines and stars. The organization To Write Love On Her Arms has always been a large part of my personal journey toward healing. Renee Yohe’s story effected me a lot, especially after I read her book Purpose For The Pain. It was the truth behind the philosophies of “Hope is real, Help is real”, “rescue is possible”, and “Love is the movement” that made me want to get help to start changing the ways my mind worked. When asked what she wanted to say to people, Renee said for TWLOHA (and amazingly, again to me personally when my friend Jeremiah had her talk to me on the phone last summer) to “remember the stars.” The entire quote is this: 
"Tell them to look up. Tell them to remember the stars. The stars are always there but we miss them in the dirt and clouds. We miss them in the storms. Tell them to remember hope. We have hope."
So then, when I was in the hospital, dealing with my demons and meeting so many people that were fighting their own, I wrote a poem for homework in art therapy that I titled “Shards of Stars” that I’m going to share with you below:
Shards Of Stars
When thoughts corrupt and words deceive, When lies are told and husbands leave, When boyfriends’ fists meet girlfriends’ faces, When murderers leave naught but traces, When silence means he gets away,  When sounds of gunshots start your day, When children commit suicide, When mom is drunk and you can’t hide, When your best friends are razor blades, When you’re raped and music fades, When life is filled with all these pains, When all else fails,Then love remains.
The truth in my words hit me as I read it out loud to the people I was writing it about. Love is the biggest thing we’ve got. Forget gravity or inertia or science - love is the most powerful force in the universe. Love is hope, love is what made me check myself into the hospital, made me want to get better, makes me fight every day for what sometimes feels futile. I’m not over depression, or bipolar II, or BPD, or hearing small voices sometimes in the back of my head tell me that it would be so easy to have that release again. It is not easy, and it probably never will be, to deny those voices. There are days that I don’t think I’ll make it. But love is bigger than that. The love that is surrounding me and filling me, the love that I have in my heart to give to myself and to others, is so much bigger than the hurt and the confusion and the urges to hurt myself that live inside my head. And I know that if I ever fall, if I ever cave in or lose myself or just can’t take it any more, if I do hurt myself again, that love will still be there. I am more than the things that have made me hurt. I am more than my mental illnesses. I am more than my pain, more than my scars, more than the sum of my mistakes. To quote a beautiful song by Fireflight, "I’m not what I have done, I’m what I’ve overcome."
I used the dashes and stars to signify TWLOHA because of what their messages mean to me, personally. In their logo, they use dotted lines connected by a white star and a  blue star. I changed the star in my tattoo to purple for a very important person in my life - one guess who. :3 From the very first time we really talked, Michael has always seen me as me - not as broken, like I’d always believed of myself, or as someone with too much baggage. He’s never made me feel like my scars are disgusting. To him, they’re just a part of who I’ve been, they’re marks on my body, and he loves me for exactly who I am…and that is still something I’m getting used to, but it is so completely beyond everything I’ve ever dreamed of love being like. Unconditional, for real. ♥
As for the lettering and the design - it’s my own, and that was important to me. The scars were put there by me, so I wanted the ‘love written on my arms’ put there by me. Right over a scar, in my own handwriting, so I remember every time I look at it that no matter what, when all else fails, love remains.

Last Tuesday, I got my second tattoo. This one was done by [the very talented] Shane Trevett at The Shaman’s Den in Binghamton, NY (they have a tumblr too! Their url is, appropriately, theshamansden.)

[TW: Mentions of SI and suicideation]

I want to just say right now that this might be a little hard for some people to read. Please, if you are easily triggered, don’t read this.

This tattoo has been a long time in the making, a lot of people and ideas and words and pain and leaving and therapy and cigarettes and hospitalization and hugs and change and a whole hell of a lot of love. I actually don’t even really know where to start. My story is so incredibly huge and, really, it would take the next 20 years to tell you about the first 20. I apologize that what ensues may be a bit long, but its my story to tell, and it’s my blog to tell it on.

There were a few times in my life, between the ages of 9 and 18, that my depression almost got the best of me. I hurt myself for a very long time. Cutting was how I got through the day, every day. Most of the time, I couldn’t even make myself get out of bed - I would just sleep, wake up, cut, and go back to sleep. It didn’t matter to me that people worried about me, or wanted me to stop, and really, knowing that I was hurting the people I loved by hurting myself only made me hate myself more. It became more than an addiction - it was my life; the only times I felt at rest were the times I was slicing myself open. But it started getting to the point that I was scaring myself, going too deep, doing it too much - the scars that you see in this picture were made while I was at college over the course of a night, and to just make a bit of a point, I don’t scar very easily. They were deep and they wouldn’t stop bleeding and when I thought about it, I didn’t even know what had upset me so much in the first place. But that still didn’t stop me. The last time I tried committing suicide, I finally had myself checked into the hospital, where I was diagnosed with the following: depression, bipolar II, pica [but only paper], borderline personality disorder, and schizoaffective disorder.That seems like a lot (even to me), but since those two weeks of intense (and very intensive) therapy, I’ve been learning how to deal with it. One day at a time, you know?

It seems like, still, there is something every day that sends a twinge of that urge to hurt myself coursing through me. I’m weak enough - and strong enough - to admit that I still have a ‘just-in-case’ razorblade hidden away. It’s hard - really, really hard - to let go of something that used to be my life. To stop myself from doing it. To try and stop myself from even thinking it. And that’s why I got this tattoo.

This design is original, and it holds a lot of meaning. It’s both a heart and the word “Love” made of dashed lines and stars. The organization To Write Love On Her Arms has always been a large part of my personal journey toward healing. Renee Yohe’s story effected me a lot, especially after I read her book Purpose For The Pain. It was the truth behind the philosophies of “Hope is real, Help is real”, “rescue is possible”, and “Love is the movement” that made me want to get help to start changing the ways my mind worked. When asked what she wanted to say to people, Renee said for TWLOHA (and amazingly, again to me personally when my friend Jeremiah had her talk to me on the phone last summer) to “remember the stars.” The entire quote is this: 

"Tell them to look up. Tell them to remember the stars. The stars are always there but we miss them in the dirt and clouds. We miss them in the storms. Tell them to remember hope. We have hope."

So then, when I was in the hospital, dealing with my demons and meeting so many people that were fighting their own, I wrote a poem for homework in art therapy that I titled “Shards of Stars” that I’m going to share with you below:

Shards Of Stars

When thoughts corrupt and words deceive,
When lies are told and husbands leave,
When boyfriends’ fists meet girlfriends’ faces,
When murderers leave naught but traces,
When silence means he gets away, 
When sounds of gunshots start your day,
When children commit suicide,
When mom is drunk and you can’t hide,
When your best friends are razor blades,
When you’re raped and music fades,
When life is filled with all these pains,
When all else fails,

Then love remains.


The truth in my words hit me as I read it out loud to the people I was writing it about. Love is the biggest thing we’ve got. Forget gravity or inertia or science - love is the most powerful force in the universe. Love is hope, love is what made me check myself into the hospital, made me want to get better, makes me fight every day for what sometimes feels futile. I’m not over depression, or bipolar II, or BPD, or hearing small voices sometimes in the back of my head tell me that it would be so easy to have that release again. It is not easy, and it probably never will be, to deny those voices. There are days that I don’t think I’ll make it. But love is bigger than that. The love that is surrounding me and filling me, the love that I have in my heart to give to myself and to others, is so much bigger than the hurt and the confusion and the urges to hurt myself that live inside my head. And I know that if I ever fall, if I ever cave in or lose myself or just can’t take it any more, if I do hurt myself again, that love will still be there. I am more than the things that have made me hurt. I am more than my mental illnesses. I am more than my pain, more than my scars, more than the sum of my mistakes. To quote a beautiful song by Fireflight, "I’m not what I have done, I’m what I’ve overcome."


I used the dashes and stars to signify TWLOHA because of what their messages mean to me, personally. In their logo, they use dotted lines connected by a white star and a  blue star. I changed the star in my tattoo to purple for a very important person in my life - one guess who. :3 From the very first time we really talked, Michael has always seen me as me - not as broken, like I’d always believed of myself, or as someone with too much baggage. He’s never made me feel like my scars are disgusting. To him, they’re just a part of who I’ve been, they’re marks on my body, and he loves me for exactly who I am…and that is still something I’m getting used to, but it is so completely beyond everything I’ve ever dreamed of love being like. Unconditional, for real. ♥

As for the lettering and the design - it’s my own, and that was important to me. The scars were put there by me, so I wanted the ‘love written on my arms’ put there by me. Right over a scar, in my own handwriting, so I remember every time I look at it that no matter what, when all else fails, love remains.