For the last week, I’ve been waking up between 4 & 5 hours after I go to bed, and having weird dreams about work. I feel mostly rested. But today I have the worst motherfucking cramps, the kind that just feels like a stabbing sharpness in my ovaries. :/ PCOS periods are hellish.
But I’m suddenly reminded that I was preemptively taking care of myself - there’s a pint of Strawberry Cheesecake ice cream in the freezer.I have tomorrow off. I can start my month of horror/Halloween movies a day early! I really need to clean so I can decorate better, though. And I think I’m making Walnut Pesto and Spinach Calzones for lunch tomorrow. Maybe because I have so many things I need/want to do, my brain is trying to keep me going on minimal sleep. Blugh.
I follow a bunch of people that I care for a lot and would love to call a friend but then I remember that I suck at actually letting people know that’s how I feel so I can’t really call them friends. =/
i wont title this or put album art
but because you are emo trash you will recognize it
I am so upset
I’m working in the cash office now.
I touched more money in cash yesterday than I will make in the next 3 1/2 years combined.
I had AMAZING technically-morning sex, and now I’m eating pizza and wings and watching The Craft. I can feel it being a great night, so I hope it is. =]
I’m finally home. This last 17 hour car ride gave me the worst swollen ankles and feet I’ve ever had. =/ I think I’ll probably get my period soon, too, so that’s great. But my vacation was wonderful! After I recover from the car ride from hell tomorrow, I’ll post a lot more pictures and start making posts again. =] Thanks for sticking with me, guys. And welcome to everyone new! <3
Alternately, check out how beautiful this photo filter makes my eyes look. Holy shit.
I mean god damn look at how fat and cute I am. :3
I’m having a good time on vacation but I also really miss my Noodle. It’s weird being on vacation with his family…without him. I feel slightly out of place. But his niece really like me and I’m getting along with his little brother more than I thought I would and the view from the deck at our suite is incredible. But not having the closeness and the warmth that comes from being in bed or even just on the couch with my sweetie is a jarring difference to my usual pace. On the bright side, I’ve made it my goal to stay as full as I can while I’m here so I can hopefully get to my goal weight and I feel so sexy and fat around all of these thin upper-middle class yacht owners and the tourists and college kids…like my belly jiggles so much when I’m walking and I just get so tempted to dig into my softness when I feel it bounce against my thighs. There’s a wall-size mirror in one of the bathrooms that shows me just how big I’ve gotten…unnnffff. Unfortunately, it’s pretty impossible to masturbate with 6 people in a 4 person suite, sleeping on the couch bed, but that’s another reason I really wish my sweetie was here : belly rubs. They’re just not as good when you give them to yourself. But anyway….
tl;dr I’m having a good time, I really miss Noodle, and I’m hot and fat as fuck.
Newport selfie (and the view from where I was standing)! I either got some really good makeup, or maybe it’s the ocean, but I feel pretty enough to not use a filter! :)
Some rare days, in the right light, if I’m wearing nice clothes and a full palette of makeup, I feel like my face is pretty.
I love this beautiful person so much. ♥
Watching Cosmos with Neil Degrasse Tyson makes me cry because of how passionate he is about everything.
This is the road, the place that I grew up most, I think.