I went to Michael’s grandparents’ house today to go meet his great aunt and uncle who were visiting from California. Michael has to work tonight, like almost every other night, so he didn’t get to go.
I know that family is often fucked up (oh god, do I) and that a lot of bullshit is kept behind closed doors. But I find myself loving these people, and even without him there as a safeguard, I felt good. I honestly feel like I’m loved. They don’t treat me like their grandson/nephew/cousin/brother/son’s weird super-fat girlfriend.
They treat me like family, and I can’t explain how much I miss that. I think I’m starting to really feel like I’m home. =]
- Room still messy as hell
- Still unable to fully conceal facial hair, despite this being literally the smoothest shave I’ve ever managed. I just have superlight skin and superdark hair.
- I still have no idea what the hell I’m doing with eyeshadow. Mascara game is good, though!
- I forgot how old/worn this pumpkin shirt is, so, uh, say hi to that bra, I guess.
today I will be cute
on further review this will be the agenda every damn day
mission already accomplished! :3
As scheduled, I will have had 2 days off in September.
I hate your manager. :(
I love you! <3
I had AMAZING technically-morning sex, and now I’m eating pizza and wings and watching The Craft. I can feel it being a great night, so I hope it is. =]
I’m having a good time on vacation but I also really miss my Noodle. It’s weird being on vacation with his family…without him. I feel slightly out of place. But his niece really like me and I’m getting along with his little brother more than I thought I would and the view from the deck at our suite is incredible. But not having the closeness and the warmth that comes from being in bed or even just on the couch with my sweetie is a jarring difference to my usual pace. On the bright side, I’ve made it my goal to stay as full as I can while I’m here so I can hopefully get to my goal weight and I feel so sexy and fat around all of these thin upper-middle class yacht owners and the tourists and college kids…like my belly jiggles so much when I’m walking and I just get so tempted to dig into my softness when I feel it bounce against my thighs. There’s a wall-size mirror in one of the bathrooms that shows me just how big I’ve gotten…unnnffff. Unfortunately, it’s pretty impossible to masturbate with 6 people in a 4 person suite, sleeping on the couch bed, but that’s another reason I really wish my sweetie was here : belly rubs. They’re just not as good when you give them to yourself. But anyway….
tl;dr I’m having a good time, I really miss Noodle, and I’m hot and fat as fuck.
I love this beautiful person so much. ♥
A pre-everything picture, followed by two shots to show off
my stubblemy cute glasses. A messy dive into the world of makeup is the next step.
I would like to illustrate in pictures why being very nearsighted sucks:
- With glasses.
- No glasses.
- Not gonna lie, wanted to show off my eyelashes.
ALL OF THAT EYE REAL ESTATE WASTED
Good job webcam and sunlight for being so bright and tricking my webcam into ignoring my stubble.
I need to learn to makeup, I suppose.
Oh yeah there’s this filtered-to-fuck shot, too.
Finally brushed the damn wig…was quite tangled. I also chopped most of the bangs off because I couldn’t find a good way to use them longer.
I miss the long hair look.
Pardon the half naked boyfriend model…(or don’t, because he’s super cute)…but I finished the hat! I fucked up the last couple rows because I missed the edit on the pattern, but I made a neat hat! Hooray!
let’s all take a minute to stop and think about how Hagrid gave Harry his homemade birthday cake, told him how much he looked like his parents, and fed him sausages before he even started to explain that he was a wizard
let’s stop to think about how his absolute first priority was to let harry know that he was loved and cared for